We Are Called To Surrender
Rosh
haShanah sermon Agudas Achim 2017
Rabbi
Esther Hugenholtz
We
are Called to Surrender
Perhaps you will have a similar childhood
memory to mine: I have a memory of standing at the edge of a cliff. My family
was on holiday and we were exploring some beautiful rugged coastline. Having
always been been a strong swimmer, I saw people leap off the cliff into the sea
below and I felt compelled to do the same. My bare feet inched closer to the
edge, toes grappling the rough, irregular rock. I peered down below where the
waves lapped hungrily. How deep was the plunge: 10 yards? 20? Perhaps 15?
There was the distinct feeling of both
excitement and discomfort. It wasn’t fear exactly – I wasn’t heroic or foolish,
I knew I would be OK. It was something else; consciously overriding my internal
mechanisms of self-preservation. I wanted to experience this; the brief
weightlessness of the drop, the deep immersion into the waters and the sense of
giving myself over to something far bigger and far more primordial than myself.
I jumped. I surrendered.
* * * *
What does it mean to embody our
spirituality? To physically give voice to the tenets of our tradition, or to
react against them?
The High Holidays are many things to many
people, of course, but most of our associations with the liturgical themes and
practices of the High Holidays tend to be cerebral. We consider our texts and
relate to them, either positively or negatively. We engage our cognitive and
intellectual faculties as we study Torah or contemplate our mortality through
the Unetaneh Tokef. Still, we can dig deeper into our emotions through music
and memory. Avinu Malkeinu and Kol Nidrey stir something deep in us; something
that weaves our personal histories into the story of our People and community.
If we dig deeper still and engage the senses, we feel primary responses to the
more earthy and sensual aspects of this season: the taste of apples and honey,
tart, sweet, crisp and sticky all at once. A family’s favorite brisket recipe,
a certain dress you may wear for the Holidays, or a special tallit.
However, the High Holidays are also more
than this. The High Holidays are ‘sacred drama’. Not only do we contemplate and
experience, we also re-enact. There is an intentionally theatrical component to
our services: some of us wear white, we stand and sit, open and close the ark,
beat our chest. Most of these ritualized actions are scripted for weekday and
Shabbat worship too, including a brief knock on the chest during the sixth
blessing of the Weekday Amidah.
There is, however, one aspect to High
Holiday liturgy that is sui generis and this is the act of prostration.
Prostration is performed during the Great Aleinu on both days of Rosh haShanah
(during Musaf in a Conservative service and during the main Amidah in the
Reform service) and during the Avodah (‘Temple Service’) part of the Yom Kippur
service. Many of us may, however, never have seen this ritual enacted, much
less performed it ourselves. In traditional Ashkenazi communities, it is
traditional for either the shaliach
tzibbur (the prayer leader) or the entire congregation to prostrate.
The Aleinu itself is a prayer with a quirky
history. We recognize the prayer from our Shabbat (and daily) liturgy. We
recite it at the end of services, wedged in between Ein Keloheinu and Mourner’s
Kaddish and more often than not, our thoughts might be on Kiddush. In fact, we
might not associate the Aleinu prayer with the High Holidays at all. Yet, it
originates from the Musaf service on Rosh haShanah, during the liturgical
section known as Malchuyot, where a different, majestic melody is used and prostration
is practiced. Although there seem to be some manuscript evidence that parts of
the prayer were already in existence during the Second Temple period, the
version we know today is ascribed to Rav, an early Amoraic (Talmudic) Rabbi
from the 3rd century CE.
What is it about the Aleinu that makes it
so compelling, or perhaps, difficult? When we distill the Aleinu to its purest
essence, we get a sense of its strong-willed, idealistic and uncompromising
nature. The Aleinu prayer is not meant to be ‘parve’. You’ll either love it or
hate it. It is supposed to grab you, shake you upand force your gaze upon
Eternity. It challenges our ideas about pluralism and tolerance, about the
world we live in and the one we dream of, about our mission in the world as
Jews and our relationship to non-Jews. It’s hard-hitting and high-stakes, but
so is our world. In the Aleinu prayer, redemption is a laser beam.
Please turn to page 202 in your machzorim.
I will purposely unveil before you a literal translation, not filtered through
the pleasantries of contemporary poetic interpretative translations.
‘Aleinu
leshabeach la’Adon hakol.’ – ‘it is upon us to praise the Master of all.’
‘Latet
g’dulah l’yotzer b’reishit.’ – ‘to give glory to the Maker of Creation.’
Now it’s going to get interesting:
‘Shelo
asanu k’goyei ha’aratzot, v’lo samanu k’mishp’chot ha’adamah. Shelo sam
chelkeinu kahem, v’goraleinu k’chol hamonam.’
The machzor gently and lovingly translates
this as follows: ‘Who has made us unique in the human family, with a destiny
all our own.’
The literal translation, however, is
purposely abrasive: ‘Who has not made us as the nations of the world, Who has
not placed us with the families of the earth, Who has not given us a lot like
theirs, or a destiny like the many others.’
Up to the Middle Ages, there was even an
extra line that was even more disparaging. Some scholars say that this was
excised under the pressure of the Church who took offense at it.
‘Shahem
mishtachavim l’hevel varik, u’mitpalelim al el lo yoshia’ – ‘That they
[followers of other religions] prostrate before vanity and emptiness and pray
to a god who does not save.’
Then we get the well-known line at which,
during normal services, we bend our knee and bow lightly from the waist. ‘V’anachnu korim u’mishtachavim u’modim
lifnei Melech Mal’chei ham’lachim haKadosh Baruch Hu.’ ‘ – And we bend the
knee and we bow before the King of the Kings of Kings, the Holy One Blessed be
He’.
Yes, this translation is intentionally
gendered and hierarchical. Mishkan haNefesh translates it as ‘For this we bend
our knees and bow with gratitude before the Sovereign Almighty – Monarch of All
– the Wellspring of holiness and blessing.’
The rest of the prayer doesn’t let us off
the hook yet; it speaks of the power, glory and might of the One God Who
created All. ‘Hu Eloheinu, ein od’ –
‘This is our God, there is no other’.
The second passage, which Mishkan haNefesh
omits in the machzor but which we read in the Conservative service as well as
during Shabbat and daily services continues its strident theme, talking of the
destruction of idolatry, the repentance of evil-doers and the universal
acceptance of the God of Israel by all humanity. Ultimately, the Aleinu dreams,
all shall bend the knee and swear fealty to our God for one that day, God will
be truly One.
I think we can take a breath now.
How does this prayer make you feel? The
Great Aleinu is high-octane liturgy and it seems fitting that we recite it in
our volatile, high-octane world. There is no denying that unrelenting monotheism
can be toxic and destructive; no religion is immune to this moral corruption.
Yet, the Great Aleinu is not only a prayer
of great force and moral grandeur; but also hopeful, brimming with dreams and
dare I say tender as paradoxically, its lofty words invite us into the intimacy
of surrender. The Aleinu invites us to take the plunge.
Rabbi Rami Shapiro, a well-known Jewish
author and spiritual teacher noted in the stellar ‘Judaism Unbound’ podcast
series that ‘Jews are bad at surrendering.’ What does it mean for Jews today –
for those of us here right now – to surrender?
We like being in control and we live in a
society that fosters, nurtures and rewards our impulses for control. Through
the Internet, we have information and convenience at our fingertips. Modern
transport allows us to traverse our globe in hours. Although awareness of our
inevitable mortality dwells on the edges of our consciousness, we expect to
live healthy and long lives. We expect to be able to heal most illness. We even
expect to exert control over global events, be they challenges of a political
or environmental nature. From micro- to macro-level, we like to imagine
ourselves in charge.
But then the miniature catastrophes of our
lives unfold, or we discover obstacles that are less surmountable than assumed.
There is a fork in the road and things do not go as planned and we are forced
to reckon with liminality and vulnerability. Our mutual rabbinic-congregational
relationship was tested by the challenges of acquiring my visa. For 18 months
we waited, dwelling in uncertainty, being forced to exercise forbearance with an
unresolved outcome.
Surrender is hard. Surrender how and to what?
There are many complex messages to the
Aleinu, many of them can be plotted along the axis between the universalist and
the particular. In fact, an entire volume of essays edited by famous Reform
liturgist Rabbi Larry Hoffman have been dedicated to this topic. The volume is
called ‘All the World – Universalism, Particularism and the High Holy Days’ and
I heartily recommend it. Yet at the heart of this tension – is Judaism just for
us or the whole world? How do we avoid the traps of stifling particularism and
arrogant universalism? How do we profess openness and love for all of humanity
without committing spiritual imperialism? – is the deeper, more personal, more
intimate question of surrender.
‘V’anachnu
korim u’mishtachim u’modim lifnei Melech Malei ha’M’lachim’ – ‘And we bend
the knee and prostrate and praise before the King of King of Kings’.
That ‘connective vav’, the letter binding
the previous clause with the following clause can be read in two ways: as ‘and’
or as ‘but’. Do we resist or do we surrender? Do we defy the expectations of
our society or give into them? Do we dare plunge ourselves into the physicality
and emotionality of an experience of which which we’ve lost our ancient
vocabulary? What does it mean to re-enact this sacred drama, literally on one’s
knees? How do we balance the dignity of the individual with the humility of
professing that there is One so much greater than us? To abandon our pride in
the face of an awe-inspiring, infinite Universe on which we project or in which
we invest our redemptive hopes?
Loss of control is frightening but can also
be liberating. We can give ourselves permission, in the context of this safe
space, this ritualized and sanctified point in time to experiment with new
modes of being and experience. To embody our hopes and fears, to open a crack
in our hearts to the Divine – whether we believe or not, whether we intuit
transcendence or not. To excavate the chambers of our inner Temple, ‘letaken ha’olam b’malchut Shaddai’ – ‘to
repair our worlds – our inner worlds – under the Sovereignty of the Almighty.’
The Aleinu, as the heart of the Rosh haShanah liturgy also encapsulates all its
important themes. How can we relate to this fractal of Rosh haShanah? Dare we
take up the Rosh haShanah challenge of sacred and safe surrender? And how does
the vertical experience of affirming Divine Sovereignty affirm the horizontal
experience of the dignity of sacred community?
I invite you to find points of entry in our
liturgy – in music, silence or text, through standing, sitting or bowing – that
allow you to do that inner work. It may be soothing or it may be uncomfortable.
Just as the shofar rouses us from the complacent sleep of set routine, these
ancient words can invite us to explore the meeting of the soul and Eternity. Do
you chafe at the notion of monotheist universalism? Or does it offer you hope
in a fractious, divided world? Can you affirm the underlying Unity of all Being
or do you feel the painful tension of sitting through an experience drenched in
theological language that means very little to you? In a world battered by
violence both natural and man-made, do you dare acknowledge how destabilized
and vulnerable things can feel as we hope for the Redemption of the entire
human race?
These are our prayers. The prayers of the
non-believer and the devout. The prayers of the regular shul-goer to the newcomer.
The prayers of the fearful and the brave, the Jewishly connected and the
Jewishly disconnected. Those who are hurt and those who have healed. Aleinu –
it is upon us all to take responsibility for our inner lives and their outer
manifestations. To sit with our discomfort, our embarrassment, our boredom, our
questions and anger as a community – an ‘agudah achat’, a united fellowship –
who have all made a conscious choice to be here today, to listen to these words
and to surrender to the unique experience of the High Holidays.
Rosh haShanah calls us to override over
internal mechanism of self-preservation. Instead we dive into those things
which have become unloved in our age: humility, contrition, repentance, service,
prayer, hope, kindness, love, righteousness, charity and dreams of a world
repaired and restored. Take the emotional risk to open yourself up truly to all
these and to the infinite possibilities of transcendence. The reward for
surrender is transformation. ‘Nekaveh
lecha’ – in the Holy Blessing One we hope, as the Jew always dares
dream.
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